Admitting it is the first step

I am fat! Overweight! Obese! A Heffer! For all the brothers out there...Thick! A Fattycakes! There I said it. I am ..GULP...218 lbs. I could sit here and tell you that I don't know how it got to this point but that would be a hideous lie. I know exactly how. I ate my way here...the same way every fat person does. Imagine Ms. pac-man in a maze of chips and dips, being chased by cupcakes but instead of running from the cupcakes she goes on a suicide mission and runs right towards the murderous fluffy cakes. Now imagine my face on Ms Pac Man and you have my life. I was not always fat...there were a few months every other year or so where I managed to not have a bigger ass than all my friends but I have always struggled with making the right choices with food and realizing the consequences that a beautiful french pastry can bring.
I come from a long line of Overweight People, hereinafter referred to as Fattycakes. The main influencer of them being my late father. Now there are three types of people reading this...those who look at a Fattycake on the street and think they want to to be that way. ( You aren't totally off base but we will get to that shortly). Then there are those of you who are family or friends and abstain from a vote in this debate...and then lastly there is the fellow fattycake who is high-fiving in the air ..." yea girlfriend, I was good all day...and then just before bed I stood in the fridge and poured Hershey's syrup in my mouth ...Holla! "
Well just so you know...I poured Hershey's in my mouth and then realized that I thought being fat was gross and that I " was choosing to be this way". I have no problem saying that now because the key to really changing from fat to Phat is to be honest about the fact that what I CHOOSE to eat or even not eat is mine and mine alone. It's about control...as an overeater or with any eating disorder and I have as much control to keep the cycle alive as I do to change it.
This blog is about my journey to change it. Welcome to my story.